Another Year of Embarrassment

Yet again, I'm totally embarrassed and humiliated. Yet again, we didn't show up to play and looked like a bunch of kids fresh out of Pop Warner. I DON'T WANT ANOTHER F***ING BIG 12 CHAMPIONSHIP, BECAUSE THAT'S ALL WE SEEM TO GET, AND THAT'S NOT ALL THAT GREAT!!! Besides, if we can't do anything with it once we win it, I'd rather let someone else win it. Let Texas have it...at least Texas can win a F***ING BOWL GAME!! I'm tired of saying, "well, there's always next year." This just isn't fun any more. I have enough bad things going on in my life to WILLINGLY add another one.

So I'm done. I'm done with Sooner football for a long, long time. I'm tired of putting my heart and soul into something just to have my heart ripped out year after year. I have loved the Sooners for a long time, literally for as long as I can remember. But perhaps it's time for us both to see other people. All of my OU items (yes, all of it, even the OU pajama pants and "Sooner Magic" rubber wristbands that I JUST got for Christmas) are packed in a box and shoved into an out-of-the-way corner of the basement. Maybe one day I'll pull them back out again.

Any of you who know me personally know that this is not hyperbole, that I really do pour so much of myself into the Sooners. I always have. When I got my first stereo for my room, it was on my birthday, a September Saturday. So of course, the first thing I listened to on my new stereo was the day's OU game, with John Brooks making the call. I don't remember who they played but I remember listening to the game on my great new stereo. Even in the lean years of the mid to late 90s, I was still a huge fan. We bought a big-screen TV, just so we could watch the 2000 National Championship game on it. I have seen so many parallels between the way the Sooners have played over the last few years and the way my own life has gone, and it's been scary to see those parallels. I live and die by OU football. But sometimes, you have to reach a point where you say, "there are more worthwhile ways to expend my time and energy." Sometimes, you have to realize something is futile, and let it go. Perhaps I'll have a nice 8-month cooling-off period and everything will be back to normal (for me, at least) come August. Then again, maybe not. I do know that this will be my last OU football post for quite a while.